UnQualified Mom is a Contributing Writer for a Homeschool Website
This is almost unbelievable.
Homeschooling was so hard for me this time last year, I actually quit.
It caused so must stress, strife, and struggle - even though God called me to it. Talk about feeling unqualified.
But, then He intervened. The Lord stepped in and took over when I finally admitted I wasn't cut out for homeschooling. Confessing my inadequacies and frustrations to Him was a game changer.
He already knew I couldn't carry on without His help. He was just waiting around for me to realize it and be desperate enough to give it all to Him.
What does that mean? Give it to Him?
Well, it means my heart cried out to the One who called me to homeschool and begged for His desires to be known.
Lord, this is so stinkin' hard. Surely, you don't want me to continue.
Lord. I hate every minute of this and am a crazy person because of it.
Lord, my natural abilities and strengths are not being utilized here. You have called me to do the one thing I am most terrible at.
Lord, I am miserable, I am making our children miserable, I am making our home life miserable.
Please, let me quit now. There is no other alternative.
He most graciously and mercifully showed me there was an alternative. He quite literally gave me 2 Corinthians 12:9. His Holy Spirit beckoned me to glory in my infirmities so His power could rest upon me.
His desire went deeper than just homeschooling our children. He wanted to homeschool the children. He wanted me to get out of the way and quit trying so hard. He wanted me to want Him more than anything else. He wanted to change me.
All I can say is He changed me. He changed me spiritually. He changed how I look at myself in regards to fulfilling the one thing I couldn't do without His intervention. He encouraged me to be okay with not being okay. He freed me to be imperfect. He gave me permission to be unqualified.
I am free to be me.
Today, His power rests upon me. And our homeschool. And our home.
I'm thrilled to be called to do something that I know I cannot do. I am ecstatic to be given the opportunity to have Him in the driver's seat. I am relieved because He has control over all this. I am just His puppet. He is the puppeteer.
What is so unbelievable about all of this?
Well, for starters I created this blog so other mamas may be encouraged to embrace their weaknesses so they can accept His strength, too.
This blog led me to become a contributing writer for another website. A homeschool website.
Here I am. The worst homeschool mom ever, and I write about homeschooling!
I find that hard to believe.
I welcome you to read a little about it here.
What are you struggling with today? Has God called you to something you hate? Something you find most miserable? Something that affects not only your home life, but your walk with Him?
I've been there. There is relief.
There is relief in His presence. There is relief in fully trusting Him.
There is relief in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10.
And He said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
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Angelene Woodard is a wife, mother, writer, and reluctant homeschooler who blogs about her frustrations and victories at www.unqualifiedmom.com where she encourages fellow Christians to embrace their weakness and accept His strength.