The Gift We Don't Want From God
I believe the Lord Almighty grants each of us a set of strengths. We call them gifts. These strengths are to be used for His glory and honor. If we are good stewards of these skills, He will make them grow and flourish. These natural abilities can bring great happiness to ourselves and others.
Likewise, He grants each of us a set of weaknesses. Even though they are wrapped in an unattractive covering with the word failure written all over it, these are gifts in disguise.
Honestly, this gift was presented with just as much love and care as the gift wrapped in success.
Once we open the gift of weakness and try it on, we soon see it doesn’t fit well. It’s uncomfortable and awkward. We absolutely wear ourselves out trying to make it fit correctly, trying to make it look and feel presentable, productive.
Alas, all that effort proves ineffective. So, we just sit there with our weaknesses on display to the world. We pout. We cry. We are defeated. We want a different gift.
We want a gift that makes us feel confident and strong. This lame gift that makes us feel like a moron is less desirable.
How does God view these gifts? He knows the truest, deepest, most accurate value of them both. I’m betting they are of equal value to Him.
Our gifts of strength make following God easy.
Our gifts of weakness make us run right back to God, tell Him all about how awful these wretched gifts are, and beg Him to change them or at least exchange them for something better suited to our personalities.
This is when we make a choice.
We can either continue to hate these gifts and turn away.
Or we can humbly offer the gift of infirmity back to Him.
We can explain how we tried so very hard to make it work. We can tell Him how we tried and failed more times than we can count.
Then we gently lay that impossible gift at His feet and ask Him to show us how it works.
That’s when He graciously blesses the gift of weakness. He is satisfied in our honesty and honors our request for help. He explains that this special gift is an opportunity to draw close to Him. This is a special kind of gift that requires continual direction and guidance. It’s not to be handled independently. The gift is then placed back into our care – with instructions to continue on.
This gift requires total dependency on the Giver. He holds the instruction manual, the batteries and other life-giving items that make the gift work, and all the additional pieces and add-ons we didn’t even know were available at first.
We are all given these amazing gifts of weakness. The sooner we identify as them as such, the easier it is to recognize their value and beauty. We may even look forward to using the gift of weakness as it is a wonderful excuse to snuggle in tight next to the Giver of all gifts.
We know our our hearts are where He wants them when we are finally able to stop cursing the gift of weakness and start thanking Him for it.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness, Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
Angelene is a wife, an unqualified homeschool mom of three, reluctant writer and blogger, and can be found hiding in her van eating a Frosty when her days are overwhelming and stressful. You're invited to follow along at www.unqualifiedmom.com.